i can't reveal what makes me smile because it's a secret. if i reveal it, it wouldn't make me smile anymore. the fact that it's a secret makes it even more exciting to me.
i'll keep it at an arms distance away from me.
some days, i anticipate it. other days, i try not to think about it. it's too far from reach for me. it's a place i shant go. it is forbidden, morally and responsibly. but that won't stop me from smiling.