now

i have exposed the truth in everything you thought you ever knew. her beauty is faulty, inside she rings hollow and dull. the walks she takes aimlessly leave dissatisfaction with no doubt. she inhales her escape and when she looks at you it rains. i saw her once, this girl. i saw her once in the mirror, and she embraced me with shackles. i saw her, with a pale face and eyes empty. and when the shackles broke free, she went away. sometimes she haunts me. she whispers things in my ear and makes me weep. but only sometimes. because now, when i smile, she runs away. and when he kisses me, she cries out my name. but only sometimes. because she knows that i have put her away. and my music is louder than her screams.